11 posts tagged “me”
Finally! Life has slowed down enough for me to post!
I've been pretty busy lately with packing, moving, and unpacking. I feel like I've given tons of stuff to our church outreach and I STILL have way too much stuff. Oh well, I keep telling myself that this is the LAST time I will have to move in long time.
With moving in and trying to personalize the house, I find myself wanting to get more in touch with my inner domestic goddess. I enjoy baking (but not cooking, go figure) having tea parties, crafting, and entertaining but haven't done any of those things in months.
One thing I've never been good at but wish I was, is gardening.
I plan on having a small garden in my front yard along with hanging baskets, window boxes, and some potted plants on the porch. I'd also like to design a backyard garden with a little fountain or pond. Now that being said, it should be noted that I have the blackest thumb of anyone I know. Seriously.
So I've decided to start small. Baby steps right? I bought a seed starter kit and planted some Zinnia seeds I had from about 4 years ago (I didn't see an expiration date so I figure they're still good) and Maravilhas seeds.
Maravilhas means "wonders" in Portuguese and my grandmother brought seeds with her from the Azores when she came to the US in the 70's. She harvested the seeds each year and kept some for my mother and I before she died. I planted some a few years ago and they germinated so hopefully these will too.
I don't remember how long they take to start growing but I know they're summer flowers and won't grow unless it's hot, so I've been taking them outside for a few hours each day. I hope they sprout soon, I'm always so impatient when it comes to plants (propably where my black thumb comes from, oh well).
I was able to find time to get out of the house recently when I broke down and finally bought a bicycle. I've been wanting one for a while now and since my new place is about 12 blocks from the river I had an excuse since I'm not within walking distance of everything anymore.
It's the cutest little cruiser, and the cheapest bike they had, perfect! I couldn't wait to try it out so Daniel and I went riding around Greenfield lake the next day. I haven't ridden a bike in years! I forgot how much fun it was. I'm so glad I got it.
I've also got a little basket for the front that I put Sebastian in. He loves it! I'll take pictures the next time I take him for a ride, he was too wiggly the first time.
I've still got so much to do as far as moving in and it's easy for me to get stressed out, frustrated, and upset so I've been making it a point to do something fun on each day that I do a lot of work on the house. You know what? It actually helps. I've been riding my bike, watching movies and spending time with friends and the house is still getting done. Slowly but surely. I just have to remember that there will always be a "to do" list but I have to remember to take time for myself.
Another thing I'm hoping to do more of is post (I know, I know, I always say that). I find myself thinking of things to post but never get around to so I'm going to start blogging from my phone more, maybe even once a day or every other day, just to get me motivated. We'll see how it goes!
I've been so busy lately that I haven't had time to sit down and make a "real" post. There's lots of things I want to write about, but after a few days it doesn't seem that important anymore. Stale reading material.
Yesterday I remembered that my mom ran into my ex a couple weeks ago in walmart of my hometown. I did a quick search and found him on myspace, happily married with a little kid. We were engaged for a little while when I was in college, and then broke up and kind of lost touch.
It's not like I'd ever want to be with him again, it's just strange how different things are than I predicted. When we lost touch he was dating less than reputable women, and haning out in bars and strip clubs all the time. Now he's happily married with a 4yr old and I'm going through a divorce after only a year of marriage. (well he seems really happy... but doesn't everyone seem happy on myspace?) I'm starting all over, and I'm almost 30. I know that's not old to most people but it's definitly not where I was supposted to be by this time. I should be having kids by now.
I almost don't want to contact him and say hi because I'm ashamed that my marriage didn't work out and he looks so darn happy. I think it bothers me because I used to be the type of person to look down on someone for "giving up" so easily and getting divorced. "What's wrong with them? That will never ever happen to me." Yeah, life has a way of turning things around and humbling you. Maybe that's what God's trying to do, get me some more humility. I was kind of stuck up about a lot of things, I can see that now. I didn't do it on purpose, I just wanted so much to NOT be the type of person I didn't respect.
Time has a way of changing things. Including me I guess.
I've been scheduled for training this week, which means I have a normal 8 - 5 schedule for once. It's strange getting home before dark. It was such a nice day outside that I decided to take Sebastian for a walk.
I've always loved to look at the beautiful old houses as I drive by, but walking through the neighborhood I got an even better view of the old architecture. Most of the houses have plaques that show the date they were built and who the orignal owners were. Most of these were built in the 1800's. Amazing.
It's always the details that I like best, like the wrought iron gates and the little statues people put in their gardens. I could live downtown forever.
The sun was setting over the bridge as Sebastian and I made our way there. I love the view of the waterfront.
He did really well on our walk today, he only got whiney near the end and whenever we crossed a busy street since he's afraid of the cars.
I did have to carry him most of the way home. he's such a mama's boy, he always wants to be held. Oh well, he's cute so I can't resist.
I really hope I get a day shift with our next schedule bid, I'm so tired of working 2 - 11. Going on walks like this is our own special time and I know Sebastian enjoys it as much as I do.
I FINALLY found a brown peacoat that I liked enough to buy. How freakin hard is it to make a brown peacoat? I must have looked for one for weeks before comming across this one. Meh. I even look kinda look pissed off in these pictures... ha ha.
After being inspired by CubistLiterature and LaidOutInLavender I thought I'd join the bandwagon and start having a self portrait thursday. Here's some pics from today, (yes I know it's technically friday but I didn't get to post them until now!)
Starting to make the Self Portrait Thursday group...
Only 6 more days till Thursday!
Hurry up and join! ;)
A self portrait of a self portrait!
Mind boggling isn't it?
I was going all the pictures I've taken since I got my digital camera and found a ton of self portraits. It's pretty interesting to see how much you've changed just by looking at pictures you've taken of yourself..
Daniel and I drove to Carborro to see The Secret Handshake and MC Chris at The Cat's Cradle last night.
On the way down we stopped for gas and there was fruit stand outside. I couldn't resist, I had to buy a couple peaches, they were so sweet and juicy.
Since we were so close to Raligh we had to stop by the Crabtree Valley Mall so I could go to the Sanrio store (of course). Poor Daniel, he had to hold the little shopping basket for me while I walked up and down every isle about 15 times. I always take forever there but there's just so much to see! I think my dream job would be working at Sanrio, if I ever live in Raleigh that's exactly what I'm going to do.
We ate at the Cheesecake Factory first, (free valet parking, woo!) and then stopped by the Mac Store. The iPhone was pretty cool, it's nice and thin, but I wasn't actually that impressed. Not for how expensive it is anyway... and it's not the easiest thing to type on. I'd much rather have an iBook, or a blue nano but they only come in 4 gig and I want an 8 gig one.
The show was awesome, MC Chris was pretty cool, he was hanging out with fans and taking pics before the show so I got this one of him and Daniel. He puts on a really fun show. I wish I knew more of his music, I'd only heard his stuff a few times when Daniel would play it in the car but I still really enjoyed myself. He was so funny, one of his songs was even about Bobba Fet and he did a cover of "Dare to be Stupid". I hope he comes back through NC again soon.
I took this pic last week. I got myself a hat since it's easier that putting my hair up when I drive with the windows down. I'm not usually much of a hat person since wearing one all day makes my hair kinda oily, but I like to wear it sometimes.
This morning was really crappy. I don't feel like getting into it yet, so instead I'll share a few pics from this afternoon. I needed to get out of the house to feel better, I called in and took and day off work, and Daniel and I went to Southport and Fort Fisher. We took his dog Dallas with us, which was a lot of fun.
We spent a little time in Southport before we took the ferry, we walked around and let Dallas pee on every bush, sign, and pile of dirt in sight. I've never really been a dog person so it was funny to me how he seemed to stop every couple feet to sniff and pee, sniff and pee.
I love how downtown is right on the water, we stopped her for a few minutes just soaking in the sun and the smell of the sea.
We took the ferry to Fort Fisher to get to the beach, Dallas had never been on a boat before but he loved it.
After we got across to Fort Fisher we went to the beach, it was the first time I'd been this summer. I don't know who had more fun, me or Dallas. We went running along the shore while Daniel complained about the sand (he's not a beach peson). He had a good time by the time we left though.
I went out with some friends Saturday and my friend Cisero did my make-up! It was so nice to be pampered and have someone else do all the work for me. I even wore falsies for the first time. (that's lashes not boobs)
I love before and after photos, so I took some.
Every once in a while I get the itch to try a different style, a new haircut or different clothes. I'm thinking about getting some color in my hair, maybe some red or blue streaks. I'm also hoping to buy some new clothes and shoes. I'll be sure to post more pics when I do.
Our wedding photographer is using one of my bridal portraits for his ad in all the local wedding magazines. Pretty cool.
